“I woke up as the sun was reddening; and that was the one distinct time in my life, the strangest moment of all, when I didn’t know who I was - I was far away from home, haunted and tired with travel, in a cheap hotel room I’d never seen, hearing the hiss of steam outside, and the creak of the old wood of the hotel, and footsteps upstairs, and all the sad sounds, and I looked at the cracked high ceiling and really didn’t know who I was for about fifteen strange seconds. I wasn’t scared; I was just somebody else, some stranger, and my whole life was a haunted life, the life between the East of my youth and the West of my future…”— Jack Kerouac [On The Road] (via imadeyouthisplaylist)
“The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe.
If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened.
But no price is to high to pay
for the privilege of owning yourself.”—Nietzsche
well, i worked a parking lot attendant job today…glad that bachelor of fine arts is finally paying off haha! but anyway. every time i think that i am in the most boring spot in the world and stuck there for hours…something amazing happens. out of nowhere, dropped seemingly from the heavens — was a larger-than-life traffic cop.
I literally had to look up to the skies to address him. what an art form. he looked beautiful — settled between the bounds of his two white lines. alternating people - cars - people - cars - left - right - left - right with the amazing directional point of his white gloved hands. the perfectly syncopated blowing of his traffic cop whistle. oh, the beauty in it all. and the power. AND THE GLORY!!! I AM IN LOVE!!!!! - until i am startled from my trance by some coach’s wife in her bmw convertable looking for a little guidance. BITCH!!!
“I got so tired of my father beating me up and calling me a fag i finally told him, look, you can do this to me all you want, but unless you’re going to kill me, you’re never going to change who i am.”—guy from this video.
I had to do a second one, because I was glancing through your things, and saw that you're a Dresden Dolls fan! I don't meet many fellow fans! xD.
well, i have an amazing story about the dresden dolls haha but it is just too long to post. in a note but if i have some time later in the week i will blog about it. maybe you will see it, i am like the “queen of stupid stories and random trivial information”.
Heys, thanks for the reblog and follow. They are both much appreciated.
How is the world treating you?
ha you are welcome. it may seem weird but i stumbled upon your blog when i was searching for the word “Impermanent” haha. Your poetry is so well written, you should be proud of yourself. Thank you for sharing.
well i guess i finally experienced a star-struck moment. i worked the bob dylan concert last night backstage at the peterson events center. we were told no eye contact because bob is self-conscience about his looks. well. i thought to myself how can you just stand there and not have eye contact with a person? i am breaking this rule haha. of all of the concerts i have ever worked i never thought i would stand there in awe of a person. well, i felt like i had lost my virginity with this one haha! i wanna tell you he just seemed larger than life. he looked strong, and the way he well, just plain walked…..was so powerful. it made me feel for some strange reason that no matter how old i get — i never REALLY have to act that old. it made me feel happy with who i am and how i can relate to all types of people of all ages. not just sizing them up because of the visual they present.
when buddha was finally released from the “perfect-word” prison created for him by his father he recognized these things:
When ignorant people see someone who is old, they are disgusted and horrified, even though they too will be old some day. I thought to myself: I don’t want to be like the ignorant people. After that, I couldn’t feel the usual intoxication with youth anymore.
When ignorant people see someone who is sick, they are disgusted and horrified, even though they too will be sick some day. I thought to myself: I don’t want to be like the ignorant people. After that, I couldn’t feel the usual intoxication with health anymore.
When ignorant people see someone who is dead, they are disgusted and horrified, even though they too will be dead some day. I thought to myself: I don’t want to be like the ignorant people. After than, I couldn’t feel the usual intoxication with life anymore.
and is some weird way bob dylan, in my mind….is buddha fact.